Kecik - Aku Sayang . . . .

sakit...pedih...inikah yang dinamakan sakit itu? ada sesuatu yang mengganjal di hatiku, sesak! saat ingin melepas sesak itu, air mata yang jatuh. aku butuh perhatian, ingin dicinta, disayang setulus hati, ingin seseorang yang ada di hati berada di sini. rasanya seperti dikoyak dicabik dan diremas!

bukaan, ini bukan sekedar drama puitis belaka! aku benar merasakannya...merasakan sedih dikala dia sedih, senang dikala dia senang, susah dikala dia susah, bahagia dikala dia bahagia...

tapi kapan aku punya orang yang bisa seperti itu padaku! kapaaaan aku merasa sayang yang berbalas..perihku ini tak tertahankan, jatuhnya air mata ini bersamaan dengan hujan di luar sana..

bisakah air mataku ini menjadikan aku lebih dewasa? bisakah air mata ini menjadikanku semakin kuat? bukankah air mata pertanda kelemahan?

 maaf..maafkan keegoisan ini, egois yang kunamakan dengan sayang, jadi maafkan aku yang sayang padamu my heart! aku sungguh sayang dan tak bisa kuelakkan lagi..maafkan aku sayaaang . . .

Kecik - #NP Utada Hikaru ~ The Flavor of Life

I think that this song is EXACTLY what i feel right now...tanpa sadar saat mendengarkan lagu ini my tears falling down...for u there, please listen my heart, this is what my heart feel, i wish u happiness :')

When you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness.
The flavor of life

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
what’s causing this frustration baby

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
it sparks no interest in me
even when things do not go the way you want
it doesnt mean you’ve thrown your life away

When asked ‘ whats wrong?’
I answer ‘its nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It’s unlike me

The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘i like you a lot’ instead of ‘i love you’ sounds more like you
the flavor of life

the period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone you had almost forgotten
I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to spend it with you

when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life